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http://www.newscientist.com/article/dn8893.html
PLEASE READ THIS!

I try my best to make myself fit into the common office hour, a scheduled working hours from 9 to 6. This is the 10th month I work under this schedule, at least I start to work everyday at 9, just not leave office at 6. Honestly, this is not MY working hours.

When I was a baby, I sleep at day and play (cry) at night. My mother still complain, “Already 12 am, everybody slept, but you wake and cry. Every (mid)night I go out with you, preventing wake the whole family……”I don’t remember how I pass the day in primary school. Only remember I read “Children Newspaper” during class, back home watch ETV, sleep, dinner, and wake up at 3 am to prepare exam.

With the same timetable, I finished those education. Everything runs smoothly because in university they allow me sleep in day time. Or, most likely I don’t attend those classes in the morning. But it become a problem now.Being a part of a team, working in a company. I have to follow the rules. I have to sit there for 8 hrs from 9am. I really try many method to tune my body. The problem is, even I can make my body go to sleep on time, my brain still working.

SHIT. That is the most active period of my brain!

Every morning, the alarm is set to wake my body, and tell my brain to stop dreaming. My brain doesn’t sleep at night. He likes to solve problem, he likes to talk, he likes to sing, he like to code AT NIGHT. What can I do? Do more exercise? Go to bed earlier? All those action is used to make the BODY sleep. The body.

I hate it.

Those doctor just suggest me to relax, keep the body at rest at night, be le ba la…… Yep. Actually they have no method to solve it.

Anybody make dream(s) every night?

Why feel something wrong when you are working for something that supposed to be the thing you like to do?

Recently, I continuous my work, something about User Interface, suppose that is the thing I dream to work for, but the feeling is not happy as I expected, or, as before.

I am some kind of emotional driven people. But this time I don’t know what make me feel like that. Here has the resource and intention to make the thing happen, but, it make me feel that it seems running to something else. It is the problem of methodology ? Or the coherency between people and mind?

I always dream of building something that can benefit people. I always dream of owning my brand, product, my company. Always.

But, also always think that I am missing partner, missing resource, missing idea, missing abc…

I don’t understand myself. Many time I try to know more about me. According to the “Define Me” application in the facebook, somebody (I really like to know who) defined me as “artistic”, “emotional, “humorous”, “passionate”, “perfectionist”. Is it the “Jeffery” you know?

This is a confusing Saturday morning. Wake up with non-stop running nose, then found the words, “depressed”, “getting lost”, “target just like mirage” float surrounding.

umum…

Just take a walk in jobsdb. Search “User Experience”…

“Sorry, we found no records that match your job criteria.”