jeffery.info

I stand a hour on the roof. Confusing. I just want to make it better.I am not a good supervisor. I can’t truly tell peoples’ potential. Honestly I don’t like to manage.
For the good of the product, I happy to see something better, even that is not by my hand. If, that is better.I am highly biased. The bias of the pursue of quality, the thirst of improvement.
I don’t like to be misunderstood.
I really like to make it out. I really like to make it better.
I have very high expectation to the new version of the application. Every parts should be greatly improve. There should be a one big step from the current.
10 months ago, during interview, the chairman asked me, ‘How to make better software?’
Jeffery answered,
‘1st. The company’s support. It is very important if the company also like to build something better.’
‘2nd. A group of talented peoples working together with the same goal.’
‘And finally, believe me. Give me the task, and trust me.’

I am too green.

Why feel something wrong when you are working for something that supposed to be the thing you like to do?

Recently, I continuous my work, something about User Interface, suppose that is the thing I dream to work for, but the feeling is not happy as I expected, or, as before.

I am some kind of emotional driven people. But this time I don’t know what make me feel like that. Here has the resource and intention to make the thing happen, but, it make me feel that it seems running to something else. It is the problem of methodology ? Or the coherency between people and mind?

I always dream of building something that can benefit people. I always dream of owning my brand, product, my company. Always.

But, also always think that I am missing partner, missing resource, missing idea, missing abc…

I don’t understand myself. Many time I try to know more about me. According to the “Define Me” application in the facebook, somebody (I really like to know who) defined me as “artistic”, “emotional, “humorous”, “passionate”, “perfectionist”. Is it the “Jeffery” you know?

This is a confusing Saturday morning. Wake up with non-stop running nose, then found the words, “depressed”, “getting lost”, “target just like mirage” float surrounding.

umum…

Just take a walk in jobsdb. Search “User Experience”…

“Sorry, we found no records that match your job criteria.”

朋友T找我幫手做一個Website Project，結果我一拖再拖冇貨交，失信於人，又阻人進度。
自己一開始想接來做，一半幫朋友，另一半我等錢用，之後做來做去都無idea見得人。

T asked am I interested on another game making project. I like to try too.
She want five games. Spent a night to think about what game to do. Study example code. Write idea down. Make dummy screen. Whole night, only make 1 title.
Estimation based on this kind of performance, and her expectation of “Fast Delivery”, I make her disappointed again.

This is not the first time I disappointed others.
Always keep bad image to others.

11pm. so tired, sleep now.